Confessions

Confessions...realizations...what ever you want to call them. I have a few:

1. There are about oh a million other things I would rather do than cook/plan meals/etc. Don't get me wrong I like doing it but there is always something that seems more important to do besides that. I grew up in a home with parents that didn't care if we ate, what time we ate, or if it was well balanced and it just wasn't a priority. My biological mom was on a self proclaimed soup/coffee/and ciggerate diet. Yeah nice huh? Anyways I'm learning that part of whole health for me is actually making food a priority. What I like about using myfitnesspal.com is that it tells me when I don't have enough daily calories and that I'm actually starving my body. Um..yeah that might be why the weight isn't coming off anymore. Since the 31 challenge started though I'm making food a priority and the weight is actually coming off again. :) Point is food and healthy eating habits are a must do for me and something I need to pay attention to.

2. I don't know how to rest. 2 months ago I had a serious allergy attack (due to what we don't know) and I was told to rest. hahahahaha yeah rest. How do you do that with 2 small kids, a husband who works all the time, a house that doesn't clean it's self and so on? You get my point. Todd actually got mad at me because I was baking brownies when I was suppose to be resting. I promised my sister I would make them for her senior art show and I wasn't going to not do them just because somebody told me to rest. Ok so I know my reasoning is flawed. Part of this challenge is for me to learn to take it easy. I make promises to people and sometimes I make commitments to myself to do certain things (laundry, dishes, etc) each day, but what I don't do is listen to my body and rest when it tells me to. I'm sure if I did my allergy attacks wouldn't be so bad, I wouldn't get pneuomia and have it for months without knowing (yes this actually happended to me and I had no idea what it was until I was in so much pain that Todd took me to the ER). In any event I'm TRYING to rest and take things slower. So what if the laundry sits for an extra day or the dust settles on the picture frames. It's not the end of the world. I'm consciously taking the time to stop between tasks take a deep breath and acknowledge what I've done. It's really amazing what slowing down can do for your body (I'm eating less sweets) and I just feel more at peace.

3. Portion sizes listed on packages should be read. I'm not kidding. I always just made the whole box of mac and cheese or whatever and ate what I wanted. When you take the time to measure out what you are eating and eat just the serving size of something you might suprise yourself and find that you are satisfied with just that. Sometimes though you look at that portion and laugh. I've done that a few times and decided afterwards that particular item was not something I wanted to waste my calories on anymore (corn dogs and chicken nuggets). Last night I treated myself to some Breyers fat free ice cream. It's amazingly good. Portion size 1/2 cup. I had enough calories and what not left for the day and knew I wasn't going to eat anything else for the day so I had a 1 cup. It doesn't seem like much but it was. As I looked at this portion I thought to myself I deserve more. I didn't take more I just decided to eat the ice cream with my daughters baby spoon. I know you can laugh. Why did I do this though? I decided that I wanted to savor each bit of it and the only way I was going to do it was to eat slowly (have you tried eating fast with a baby spoon? lol You can't eat fast even if you wanted to). To my suprise I was actually very happy with the amount that I had and loved every spoonful and didn't even want more when I was done.