Did I reach my birthday goal of 170lbs. Nope. In the picture above which was taken yesterday I'm at a solid 173.5 I probably could have reached my goal if I wanted to but I've been kinda at a stalemate with my life and everything involved in for the last week. I take full responsibility for not eating right, exercising very little, and just letting life run me over.
Today (well yesterday) started a new year for me. In a year I will be 30. This is the year that I take control and focus on me and what is important. I will not let my family drag me down and depress me. I will not beat myself up for not being perfect. I WILL focus on my 30 goals for the year. I WILL be nice to myself and I WILL enjoy the life that I have.
Even though I didn't hit my mini-birthday goal I still felt great. I wore a dress that I hadn't worn in years. I wore it several times before kids and then couldn't fit into again. It felt wonderful to know that I'm probably about the size I was before kiddos and that means I'm on the right track.
For my birthday I did recieve some wonderful gifts that will help me in my health adventures. My adopted mom bought me my running shoes and they should be here sometime this week. My in-laws bought me the resistance bands that I wanted and my sister Stephanie got me a gift card so I could go buy some new clothes so "I would stop tugging up my pants all the time" lol. The girls were going to bring over the P90x for me to borrow too but they forgot to bring it in the hurry to get to my place. I'm very excited for these gifts and for the motivation they bring to me.
I've already mapped out my first run outside and can't wait to get my shoes. I've already tried out my resistance bands (it's a set of 5 that have different thickness to the bands to create different weights) and can't wait to add them into my normal exercise routine. I'm excited to get to that p90x (as soon as I finish my birthday cake lol) and see more results.
As I continue with this weight journey too I have to remember to take a breath and enjoy down time from time to time. I'm not talking I have a headache and am forced to rest but the last week I've really let myself struggle and hurt with my emotions and it's ok to do that. The trick is to not dwell on it but move on. So while I'm sure there are times when I want to quit and I'm tired from life that I should allow myself the time to stop everything and just veg out. To not think, to eat what I want (without caring), to sleep in just a little bit longer, and to just enjoy the moments as they are.
This is a new year. A new adventure and I am excited!
(to see my list of 30 things I want to accomplish this year check out the sidebar on the right that has the list)
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