thoughts

Over the last couple of days a couple of thoughts have popped into my head:

1. I need to sign up for my 5k and that I'm really excited about doing it. More than once the thought has come into my brain that I really need to run outside soon and it doesn't scare me. I'm actually kinda excited about it.

2. Sometimes just praying or speaking out loud your fears is enough to make them less scary. Money has been tight around here I'm talking tight tight tight. Like if it's not urgent we aren't getting it right now kind of tight. Anyways I was freaking about how we were going to make rent and I started to pray that something would work out. Right after I said those words I received an email that someone wanted to buy my ab circle pro and a few other things I had listed on craigslist (and they actually showed up and bought the stuff) and Todd was asked if he wanted a couple extra shifts this week. We might just be able to pay rent after all.

3. I have been spending so much with P90x that I actually dreamed the other night that I met Tony on a plane and told him that he looked familiar and that I wasn't sure why I knew him. Then he smiled his big smile said his name is Tony and it hit me that the reason he looked so familiar was because I spend an hour or more a day with his face on my TV. His response was keep up the good work. I told Todd about my dream and he laughed at me. He said sometimes at night in my sleep he thinks I'm counting reps or something since sometimes I'm randomly talking and it sounds all very p90x talk to him. lol.

4. Never doesn't really mean never. My grandmother who had just recently rejected me and told me she never wanted to talk to me again called me and talked to me for an hour today! Uh yeah after I picked my jaw up off the floor I was actually happy to hear from her. I miss my family even if they are dysfunctional and break my heart at every chance they get. Though she didn't say anything about our previous phone call this almost felt normal and I for a second felt like I was someone that means something to her again. Maybe just maybe there is hope for my family yet.

5. On my list of 30 things to do is join a book club. First mtg is on Thursday night. I hope I finish the book by then. We are reading Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. I'm bored with this book and I'm not connecting with the character at all. Todd thinks I just just stop reading but I think I should finish the book so I can at least have a complete view of it and then maybe I'll be able to place exactly what it is about this book that just isn't doing it for me.

6. Twice in the last 2 days I've been encouraged by people who I casually know about my health journey and have had long talks about running, being healthy, and just general well being. It's kinda cool how different people bring those things to you when you aren't expecting it and how great it is that God gives us these moments. These aren't conversations I normally have with these people and yet after each talk I felt invigorated and ready to go. More sure of my goals and my desires to continue this overall lifestyle change for growth and health.

So there ya have it. These are just a few of the thoughts in my head at the moment. What's been on your mind lately?